:(

 i couldn't have been more wrong.

i thought that i could smile,nod my way through it

pretend like it would all be ok.

i had a plan

i wanted to change who i was

create a life as someone new

someone without the past

without the pain

someone alive

but it's not that easy

the bad things stay with you

they follow you.

you can't escape them,

as much as you want to.

all you can do is be ready for the good.

so when it comes,

you invite it in,because you need it,

i need it..